Chances

Hi, Assalamualaikum!

If you ever read my entry on knowing someone new ("new guy"), you may have some ideas about what I'm gonna talk about. That rebound relationship thing.

So yes, this entry is about him, and me.

I'm quite certain previously that the new guy, let me name him as S, is my rebound partner as he came around the moment I have my heart broken blablabla whatever. Actually I've been in this kind of rebound relationship before, which at that time, I had caused that innocent guy a serious major damage on his feelings. I really don't want it to happen again, but somehow I have to give myself a chance, but I have to be extra careful.

Long story short, I gave myself chance to fix something, to know this guy and to be happy again. That took a lot of patience, really, and yes, it was not easy. Few months in developing my feelings for him, sometimes I failed. There was this time after 4 or 5 months been in this relationship, I was suddenly feeling suffocated by all the things about him, I started to treat him coldly, partially because I was having a hard time about my study (I was in the process of quitting my study that time). I distanced myself from him, refused to tell him why, I just feel that I need to split up with him. So I said to him to just stay away from me, just leave me alone. I really feel that I should give up on him. But he didn't. He did stay away but still sending me goodnight text just to let me know he loves me. Then, when my heart lighten from the burden of the problems (it settled), I decided to discuss with him about the exact feelings I felt for him. I asked him to give me time and support.

Time passes and now I love him for real. The short gap he left for me to mend my heart had clearly made everything better. It makes me realize that the chance I've given to him is not only for him to prove that he is worthy, but for my own self to love fairly and never give up.

To S; Thank you for the patience you have for me, thanks for never give up, thanks also for giving me chance to know you.

Thankyou Allah for sending me this great person in my life.

Happy *666 days, S - xoxo, A

ps: *takde kaitan dengan number setan pun, hahahaha

Byeee,

A Start of Something New

Hi, Assalamualaikum!

Yeah I haven't sleep yet at this hour, the insomnia kicks in I guess.
I've been wanting to tell you this, to you whom might be reading this entry, and to anyone who read. It could be some kind of announcement but to those who didn't know, I quit from UiTM. Yass, quit. It might be a statement to ponder but yeah, I kinda give up studying there. I couldn't keep it up. My passion towards sciences subject have decreased amazingly.

My decision had taken a lot of consideration of course, but it was determined by me. Yes, myself. Please don't ask me anymore, don't ask me why. I'd actually been thinking of this since I was in semester 2 in UiTM but I had no one to talk to so I keep it to my self. Semester 3, at the end of it, it's getting worse. So you might think that this is sudden but no. I've been going back and forth on this matter and finally I had my say.

It is not that I've given up to study. No. It just, no more sciences. I love Science, I love Biology, Microbiology, Chemistry, Organic Chemistry,.. Yeah everything chemistry is cool. Except physical chemistry. Physical chemistry is anything but fun. Trust me cause I hate the math in it. Sorry not sorry. So I've applied for English course somewhere, I'm not gonna tell you now. But later will do, okay?

This gonna be a very new start for me, to start all over again from the bottom but I will struggle my ass off! HAHAHA. I might say good bye to the forensic career now. I'm not throwing it away, I'm just putting aside to achieve my new goal. I wanna be a teacher in international or private school, get a great salary and travel the world. My main goal is to be rich. Yeah, with the way I stated above. You might don't see it now but just wait for the result. Okay?

Yeah, Gimme a Heads Up!!

Toddles, Salam Ramadhan yang Bakal Tiba, byee (:

Suka Suka

Hi, Assalamualaikum.


I wonder if there's some people who will wonder abt my blog. Because they might think that I am not serious in blogging. Truth be told, I'm not an active blogger or blogger tegar. I'm just writing in my blog as it's some diary, online diary but not on too private thought. A thought that I thought can be shared or need to be shared with some people, others (well if there is). Sometimes, I wanna share my piece of something to someone, anyone, but I'm not capable of doing so in real life. So this is my medium. I guess, my only medium to let it out.

Bye for now, fellas.