Chances

Hi, Assalamualaikum!

If you ever read my entry on knowing someone new ("new guy"), you may have some ideas about what I'm gonna talk about. That rebound relationship thing.

So yes, this entry is about him, and me.

I'm quite certain previously that the new guy, let me name him as S, is my rebound partner as he came around the moment I have my heart broken blablabla whatever. Actually I've been in this kind of rebound relationship before, which at that time, I had caused that innocent guy a serious major damage on his feelings. I really don't want it to happen again, but somehow I have to give myself a chance, but I have to be extra careful.

Long story short, I gave myself chance to fix something, to know this guy and to be happy again. That took a lot of patience, really, and yes, it was not easy. Few months in developing my feelings for him, sometimes I failed. There was this time after 4 or 5 months been in this relationship, I was suddenly feeling suffocated by all the things about him, I started to treat him coldly, partially because I was having a hard time about my study (I was in the process of quitting my study that time). I distanced myself from him, refused to tell him why, I just feel that I need to split up with him. So I said to him to just stay away from me, just leave me alone. I really feel that I should give up on him. But he didn't. He did stay away but still sending me goodnight text just to let me know he loves me. Then, when my heart lighten from the burden of the problems (it settled), I decided to discuss with him about the exact feelings I felt for him. I asked him to give me time and support.

Time passes and now I love him for real. The short gap he left for me to mend my heart had clearly made everything better. It makes me realize that the chance I've given to him is not only for him to prove that he is worthy, but for my own self to love fairly and never give up.

To S; Thank you for the patience you have for me, thanks for never give up, thanks also for giving me chance to know you.

Thankyou Allah for sending me this great person in my life.

Happy *666 days, S - xoxo, A

ps: *takde kaitan dengan number setan pun, hahahaha

Byeee,