A Start of Something New

Hi, Assalamualaikum!

Yeah I haven't sleep yet at this hour, the insomnia kicks in I guess.
I've been wanting to tell you this, to you whom might be reading this entry, and to anyone who read. It could be some kind of announcement but to those who didn't know, I quit from UiTM. Yass, quit. It might be a statement to ponder but yeah, I kinda give up studying there. I couldn't keep it up. My passion towards sciences subject have decreased amazingly.

My decision had taken a lot of consideration of course, but it was determined by me. Yes, myself. Please don't ask me anymore, don't ask me why. I'd actually been thinking of this since I was in semester 2 in UiTM but I had no one to talk to so I keep it to my self. Semester 3, at the end of it, it's getting worse. So you might think that this is sudden but no. I've been going back and forth on this matter and finally I had my say.

It is not that I've given up to study. No. It just, no more sciences. I love Science, I love Biology, Microbiology, Chemistry, Organic Chemistry,.. Yeah everything chemistry is cool. Except physical chemistry. Physical chemistry is anything but fun. Trust me cause I hate the math in it. Sorry not sorry. So I've applied for English course somewhere, I'm not gonna tell you now. But later will do, okay?

This gonna be a very new start for me, to start all over again from the bottom but I will struggle my ass off! HAHAHA. I might say good bye to the forensic career now. I'm not throwing it away, I'm just putting aside to achieve my new goal. I wanna be a teacher in international or private school, get a great salary and travel the world. My main goal is to be rich. Yeah, with the way I stated above. You might don't see it now but just wait for the result. Okay?

Yeah, Gimme a Heads Up!!

Toddles, Salam Ramadhan yang Bakal Tiba, byee (:

Suka Suka

Hi, Assalamualaikum.


I wonder if there's some people who will wonder abt my blog. Because they might think that I am not serious in blogging. Truth be told, I'm not an active blogger or blogger tegar. I'm just writing in my blog as it's some diary, online diary but not on too private thought. A thought that I thought can be shared or need to be shared with some people, others (well if there is). Sometimes, I wanna share my piece of something to someone, anyone, but I'm not capable of doing so in real life. So this is my medium. I guess, my only medium to let it out.

Bye for now, fellas.

Be it,

Assalamualaikum and Hi!

There are so many things running in my mind and I have to let it all out. Just not right now cause I have Mycology test at 2pm today. But I will. Kau tunggu k. Tunggu

Damage had been done.

Good job Adzlin, good job sangat. Things that ought to be avoided before, just happened. I don't know what is wrong with me duhh. I keep pushing people away. Why so hard for me to open my heart for someone? Few people had confessed their feelings for me. And I'll be like, ooookay dude, you're my friend so no. I've tried but still the same. But things are different with this one guy. Everything went smooth and all, and it turns up that he had feelings for me. Though I am not trying to deny that I feel the same way. I just keep it low and keep it at bay. Or the edge? Yass, I am afraid. Afraid of something I don't even know. Afraid to try. Afraid to care too much for the fear that I will fall hard after flying high with hopes and stuff. However, I am the one who is giving him hope. He said that I am the one who strengthen his feelings for me.


Memang. Memang aku yang salah. Aku tak try untuk halang menda cemni daripada jadi. Aku layan kan je. Tapi at the same time, aku cuba buka hati aku untuk dia.

Aku bengang, malu dengan diri aku sendiri. I was too deep in the feeling of grief, of dejection, of heartache, of *insert words with similar meaning here* that "that guy" had left me after giving me such hopes and without me realising it, I've been doing the same thing for this "new guy". I accidentally level myself with that selfish "former guy". Or maybe I even worse than him. Sigh.

At the same time, I am afraid this "new guy" is just my rebound. A rebound to fill the hollow gap the "former guy" had left me with. Oh, you do know the terms Rebound Relationship, do you?

So what shall I do now? Give it some more time or just live in the moment by giving this "new guy" a chance? Hard-thinking tho. Gtg. Subuh already.

Bye, Assalamualaikum!